being forgotten is really painful.

talking with them,
havin wonderful memories with them,
and the next time u talk.
all they ask is:
" sorry who are you again?"

now i know what it feels like.
really painful.

when life gives you lemons, you make lemonade.
sooo when life gives you pain, you make window panes?

ok random again haha..

i think i need to see the doc soon
having bad stomachaches and alot of problems.
hope nothing is wrong...

gonna get braces (i think) soon.
ewwww.

toodles

change

I decided to forget about her.
the pain she's given to the friend that trusted her.

To live once again
To try everything again
To restart everything
Today is the day where i start anew
Today is the day where i shall change my world
today is a new day

I feel different
somehow.
talking to HYU now. really happy
SHe made my day :D

Drew a pic yesterday. of the the figurine kenneth was talking about.
VERY CUTE. <333 it thought i have no idea where it comes from o.o
ahahaha. will upload soon.
trying to draw madam's Miku Hatsune from Vocaloid or whatever o.o
NOT EASY. i cant draw manga eyes for nutz @.@
ahahaha NUTZ LOL

ok random~
Kinda miss maple cause i cant chat to them anymore.
BUt i dont regret this decision.
Gonna live to the end with it :D
JYJY

LOVE LIFE

why

today i found the people that care for me
that truly like me for who i am
who truly enjoy having me as company
and love me for being their friend.

Thanks all.

But you. Just you
Are enough to ruin my mood.
You really changed again.
I was elated when u put that last time
I was grinning like an idiot.
and now.
the littlest thing you do just hurts me
you're still drifting further and further.
as though i had taken the wrong choice
really.
i mean it.
this world seems to hate me.
Why.WHy.WHy

I doubt u even know how i;m feeling
i doubt u even give a dam about what i;m feeling
go on
go with them
leave me alone
again.

FREAK YOU DAMMIT.
I CHOSE TO TRUST YOU.
AND NOW?
...

freak this world

haha.
hahahahaha...

F manz. -.-

people are leaving again.
People close to me,
people who i want to know more, to get close to
just all go away.

I wanted to know you more..
But it seemed like i couldnt.
IM STILL TRYING MY FREAKING BEST.
AND NOW U GO AWAY.
WHY.WHY.WHY

This life seems freaking unfair
cycles just keep repeating.
Sometimes i just wish the world would just stop
so i could live the moment i want.

Freak this world.
IF you dont wanna help me
you dont want to make me happy
Just freaking leave me alone.

let me bask in the disgusting loneliness.
you just made me more lonely.
dont you know that?
really.
FREAKFREAKFREAKFREAK.

IHY. WHY.WHY.
I HAVENT GIVE YOU YOUR PRESENT EITHER.
why..
you want me to leave it here with me so i can be reminded of you?
the fact that you just left?
the fact that i never got to know u well enough?

i wanna cry.

"What hurts the most,
Was being so close.
And having so much to say,
And watching you walk away." - joseph (from some song)

.....

bday & inline hockey

my back hurts
my shoulders hurt
my arms hurt

but all is well for the sake of inline hockey <3 :D

had plenty of fun in the past two days with inline culture and the inline hockey workshop. Really learnt alot and had lots lots of fun.

bro's bday today :D excited xD
he's having his SNSD craze lols
mmmmmmmmm oreo cheesecake
ice cream
chocolate ice cream
chocolatesss
and moreeeeeeeeeeee
yum

but i'll gain lots of weight
haha

anyways~
shall go now
play maple >:D
cyas

you've changed
you did
you really did.

you've changed yourself
to another self
which i just cannot
comprehend

you've already changed me
and now you change
what do you expect
for me to do?

Baka.

i really cant catch your pace.
Are you really just another one of those again?

i;m lost
and confused

shoulder pain D;

ahhh

2nd time i missed training in a row. GReat. Plus i dont have a letter / mc for it -.-

my shoulder hurts super badly. can't even sleep well cause once i lie down it hurts like someone stabbed me on my back -.- only can sleep in one position and everytime when i sleep and happen to turn i immediately wake up cause of the &^%*&$%^%$#^%$#^%# pain -.-

like any of the teachers will believe me. EVERY little thing also have to have mc -.-

If i go training i might as well die from the pain first.

hmph

Felisia