being forgotten is really painful.

talking with them,
havin wonderful memories with them,
and the next time u talk.
all they ask is:
" sorry who are you again?"

now i know what it feels like.
really painful.

when life gives you lemons, you make lemonade.
sooo when life gives you pain, you make window panes?

ok random again haha..

i think i need to see the doc soon
having bad stomachaches and alot of problems.
hope nothing is wrong...

gonna get braces (i think) soon.
ewwww.

toodles

change

I decided to forget about her.
the pain she's given to the friend that trusted her.

To live once again
To try everything again
To restart everything
Today is the day where i start anew
Today is the day where i shall change my world
today is a new day

I feel different
somehow.
talking to HYU now. really happy
SHe made my day :D

Drew a pic yesterday. of the the figurine kenneth was talking about.
VERY CUTE. <333 it thought i have no idea where it comes from o.o
ahahaha. will upload soon.
trying to draw madam's Miku Hatsune from Vocaloid or whatever o.o
NOT EASY. i cant draw manga eyes for nutz @.@
ahahaha NUTZ LOL

ok random~
Kinda miss maple cause i cant chat to them anymore.
BUt i dont regret this decision.
Gonna live to the end with it :D
JYJY

LOVE LIFE

why

today i found the people that care for me
that truly like me for who i am
who truly enjoy having me as company
and love me for being their friend.

Thanks all.

But you. Just you
Are enough to ruin my mood.
You really changed again.
I was elated when u put that last time
I was grinning like an idiot.
and now.
the littlest thing you do just hurts me
you're still drifting further and further.
as though i had taken the wrong choice
really.
i mean it.
this world seems to hate me.
Why.WHy.WHy

I doubt u even know how i;m feeling
i doubt u even give a dam about what i;m feeling
go on
go with them
leave me alone
again.

FREAK YOU DAMMIT.
I CHOSE TO TRUST YOU.
AND NOW?
...

freak this world

haha.
hahahahaha...

F manz. -.-

people are leaving again.
People close to me,
people who i want to know more, to get close to
just all go away.

I wanted to know you more..
But it seemed like i couldnt.
IM STILL TRYING MY FREAKING BEST.
AND NOW U GO AWAY.
WHY.WHY.WHY

This life seems freaking unfair
cycles just keep repeating.
Sometimes i just wish the world would just stop
so i could live the moment i want.

Freak this world.
IF you dont wanna help me
you dont want to make me happy
Just freaking leave me alone.

let me bask in the disgusting loneliness.
you just made me more lonely.
dont you know that?
really.
FREAKFREAKFREAKFREAK.

IHY. WHY.WHY.
I HAVENT GIVE YOU YOUR PRESENT EITHER.
why..
you want me to leave it here with me so i can be reminded of you?
the fact that you just left?
the fact that i never got to know u well enough?

i wanna cry.

"What hurts the most,
Was being so close.
And having so much to say,
And watching you walk away." - joseph (from some song)

.....

bday & inline hockey

my back hurts
my shoulders hurt
my arms hurt

but all is well for the sake of inline hockey <3 :D

had plenty of fun in the past two days with inline culture and the inline hockey workshop. Really learnt alot and had lots lots of fun.

bro's bday today :D excited xD
he's having his SNSD craze lols
mmmmmmmmm oreo cheesecake
ice cream
chocolate ice cream
chocolatesss
and moreeeeeeeeeeee
yum

but i'll gain lots of weight
haha

anyways~
shall go now
play maple >:D
cyas

you've changed
you did
you really did.

you've changed yourself
to another self
which i just cannot
comprehend

you've already changed me
and now you change
what do you expect
for me to do?

Baka.

i really cant catch your pace.
Are you really just another one of those again?

i;m lost
and confused

shoulder pain D;

ahhh

2nd time i missed training in a row. GReat. Plus i dont have a letter / mc for it -.-

my shoulder hurts super badly. can't even sleep well cause once i lie down it hurts like someone stabbed me on my back -.- only can sleep in one position and everytime when i sleep and happen to turn i immediately wake up cause of the &^%*&$%^%$#^%$#^%# pain -.-

like any of the teachers will believe me. EVERY little thing also have to have mc -.-

If i go training i might as well die from the pain first.

hmph

Felisia

3I Class Outing ; We're PINK and crazy xD

yayyyy! class outing muahahah xD

so fun @.@ Loveddd the papaya captains ball. so epic, dirty but FUNNNN xDDDDD

the other games we also awesome, i bet we all had lots of fun :D played at the beach and sea~ and its funny to watch the rest do the forfiet (hurhurhur)

after it was over we went to daiso. didnt buy anything but was really tempted to buy the beads to make the keychain @.@.
Went to Forever 21 later, saw this really cute panda necklace and bought it impulsively. GAHHHHHH... there were many other cute stuff too o.o

Idk if its coincidence or what, but my panda shirt was the last one in stock ; the panda necklace was also the last one there ; and the panda donut me and shi min bought for ryan was also the last one O.o......


ANyways, was really happy today xD bought ben and jerry's home after dinner today fufufufuuuuu. learned some german from my daddy <333 in the car on the way there :D

gotta sleep. byeeeeee <3

holidays

been bored this past few days, nothing much to do D;

but at least i decided what i wanted to do this holidays :D

1. Finish the Holiday Homework Early
2. Finish up on the carpet
3. finish up all my little models and the scorpion!
4. learn guitar :D
5. Learn german xD
6. learn manga drawing
7. clean up my documents
8. go out for outings and stuff more and not stay cooped up at home ><

i feel so ambitioius LOL. i'll upload the photos of my work soon ^^

I guess imma gonna quit maple, getting really boring and no life. i need something to entertain me.......

Anyone wanna go out ? :D

messed up brain

title says all. mood swings mess up your brains

drifters

sheesh. not in a good mood these few days. only the day shin yi came over :D

but still. i hate the fact all are drifting away. further and futher. secrets kept, hidden. i wonder why they are still people i call friends. i don't understand.

key to my heart.

..

bad cough for the past 3 days. stilll hurts like hell and i sound like i'm shrieking / like a guy. (definition from diff ppl).

great. just great.

tired

bleh. today was a reallyreally tiring day T-T

slept late, then daddie and bro woke up to watch world cup, then i couldn't sleep for 1hour ++ . then in the morning had to chiong idmi storyboard, then morning assembly had to stay there and listen to dr foo's lecture. aft that chinese lesson li lao shi talked about dr foo's words, whole class got quiet again. PE was tiring, + it was HOTTTTTTT and i got sunburnt. THe rest of the day was not so bad, until trng. was tired so i kinda screwed up, hurt my knee too. ended up sleeping on the sofa when i reached home. sighhh.

haiz... nth much cheered me up today...

THE ONLY EXCEPTION BY PARAMORE <3 :D

V for Vendetta

haizz... tired now, nth interesting happen today, except that my com kept hanging and lagging like just now -.- pissed me off rawr

anyways, watched V for Vendetta on youtube today. ITS UBER NICE, though i still dun like the bloody killing scenes. Lucky there wasn't much. BUT ITS STILL AWESOME :D i TOTALLY recommend it :D


i feel like learning japan, then can go japan hot spring with shi min xD hahaha. so i went online to try finding online guides. that was a total fail attempt. believe me it really was.so, i think i can;t learn jap, its hard D;

I give up toooo easily. sigh.

IDMI is over

gee. i keep quitting blogging cause i'm too lazy to update. rofl

anyways, have been busy the past few days doing IDMI. finally finished. partially screwed the presentation cause i forgot some of my lines, and the mentors ask alot of questions D; thats sad T-T

poetry seems fun

Sometimes i wish i'm not weak

this suckz. as in it really suckz.

why the hell can't i choose? its my life, how can you decide it?

i said i don't enjoy it. i hate it. i'm starting to. i really don;t like it. its just a waste of time.


screw it