freak this world

haha.
hahahahaha...

F manz. -.-

people are leaving again.
People close to me,
people who i want to know more, to get close to
just all go away.

I wanted to know you more..
But it seemed like i couldnt.
IM STILL TRYING MY FREAKING BEST.
AND NOW U GO AWAY.
WHY.WHY.WHY

This life seems freaking unfair
cycles just keep repeating.
Sometimes i just wish the world would just stop
so i could live the moment i want.

Freak this world.
IF you dont wanna help me
you dont want to make me happy
Just freaking leave me alone.

let me bask in the disgusting loneliness.
you just made me more lonely.
dont you know that?
really.
FREAKFREAKFREAKFREAK.

IHY. WHY.WHY.
I HAVENT GIVE YOU YOUR PRESENT EITHER.
why..
you want me to leave it here with me so i can be reminded of you?
the fact that you just left?
the fact that i never got to know u well enough?

i wanna cry.

"What hurts the most,
Was being so close.
And having so much to say,
And watching you walk away." - joseph (from some song)

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